Long winding road
Saturday, August 22, 2009 12:05 AM
Sometimes, a lone tear will slip out from the side of your eye. Normally, you'll just wipe it away and pretend that nothing's happening but as you accumulate the tears and feelings, you get drawn further and further from the people you once knew so much about. Those that would call you in the middle of the nights just to talk and those that would help you so much when you're in need. All these times, you want to stop all these but you know that there isn't any way else for you to move on with except forward. No matter how tough it is, how lonely, you'll still have to walk it through cause at the end of the day, that's always the case. You won't be living when you're not feeling the pain and you won't be feeling the pain unless its life. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger and as time goes by, you'll learn bit by bit, that it isn't all as simple as it seems. Sometimes, you seem like you're building a wall up, refraining anyone from getting through, just because you feel the hurt, the pain and the frustration. If the wall has been there from the start, none of these would have happened but at the same time, all those memories wouldn't have been created too. There's always a reason for everything, you'll just have to find it out yourself. Weakness of attitude becomes weakness of character. Everyone has made mistakes before. Mistakes that can't be erased unless they haven't tried anything new to make any. Sometimes, its hard to feel things, even if you want to. Its because you've already been hurt that much, nothing bothers you anymore. Its not the same. Its hard to really try when you're not given chances. Its hard to mend things that have already been broken, time after time yet, it doesn't feel right. To know that you've not attempted to try to amend things but yet, give up straight away. All those worries and thoughts, only scaring yourself when in fact, you know what will happen. But sometimes, things have been changed that much that you're really not sure too. Already feeling tired and weary, you want to take a nice long sleep and wake up to find that everything is all normal and fine, but reality it is. Problems doesn't get solved that easily and to find the solution to the problem, you've to find the source of it. Yet, most of the times, the sources of the problems are minor issues. Never place your hopes up high cause when they fall, they'll fall harder than they're supposed to. Putting your hopes up high, just to watch them fall, isn't a very smart choice afterall. You begin to think, why're you doing all these. Just to realise that there's no answer to such a question. Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one. 伤心总是难免的.Labels: Senseless, thoughts, tired
