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2009-09-28T21:48:00.001+08:00

RELINK RELINK RELINK :)

Pissed.

2009-09-28T21:47:00.002+08:00

This post has been deleted :)

TUMBLR! :)

2009-09-27T21:34:00.000+08:00

Have shifted to tumblr :)
RELINK please :)
lipsticksmudge.tumblr.com

thanks.
love many

2009-09-22T21:27:00.001+08:00

Very fucking sad.
Screw the world.

Time tells all

2009-09-10T23:54:00.000+08:00

Today, I practically slacked it through. A day without having to go back to school is, relaxing. Quite great. Woke up early. On comp, used for awhile and decided that I was still tired (YES, pig, i know!) then I went back to sleep. Woke up at 3? Had lunch and everything then continued to slacked. So therefore, I shall conclude that my day was slacky, quite slacky, and even more slacky. Though it was a good day! So there it is. Good night. I'll be having a long day tomorrow!!! :D Going for training early in the morning. Then to play badminton with nic and co. Then pool with the peeps in the evening. Woahlala. Hope I don't run out of energy. YAWN. lol

Watch for your back

2009-09-10T22:48:00.003+08:00

Hey girl, you've to seriously learn to know your limits. Things won't work out this way. You think what you think is right huh? How bout all you've been thinking all along was your own 'superiority', your made up one, to be exact. No doubts, you have your way of thinking and all, but this isn't the way people do things. You don't act like you know the ending when you don't. Strategy? Well, perhaps losing was also included in there, no? So you're trying to make yourself seem superior, you've to delude that the rest are inferior, and you're the best or prolly second to the best. That's what you were trying to say all along right. So you should know, what you did was the same or prolly even worse than what I am doing now. You should. When you call people superficial, think about yourself. Always saying that about others just to be able to put yourself in place. Simply saying, you're just an insecured person, and a very insecured one too. I won't use no ugly words on you now cause I know you'll probably use it back. How bout, think, think hard, think deep, think well. Think if you've been criticizing, looking down and boasting. Really, you may use all other forms of words to cover up for those actions or you may use words that simply mean other stuffs to replace it but that does not and will never change the fact that you once said those words. You really contradict yourself, if you've already let it go, you wouldn't do that. You wouldn't crap that much. You say this is absurd? I beg to differ cause if it is, you wouldn't have cared about it in the first place. Contradicting always, there you go again. If you're not what you said it is, everyone would be humble now. Rejoice.

XieXF!

2009-09-07T20:17:00.000+08:00

Woke up early in the morn and went to mac met aizhen then went for the chinese test. Actually wanted to pon with a mc but whatever.
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Quite sad man, XieXF going to retire next month! :((( At the age of 28. That's quite early, but afterall she has already won that many medals including many uber cups and a silver in the recent olympics. Though so, next year's aviva will not be the same without her! :( What a pity but LinD will be continuing his career so its a plus there. Geez, really quite sad. She will be retiring after the October National Games!!
More info on MSN .

"Xie has proved she is one of the best players in the world."
-LiYongBo =D

So tired of tears.

2009-09-04T21:27:00.000+08:00

I LOVE MY BABY BEAN!!!
My new baby, bean AKA Sheryl.LJY[1r4]. Don't sad already okay! SMILE! =D and stop thinking so much too! Switch that brain of yours off! As in, you know what I mean! Talk to me if you need anyone to be there! (: ehhehheh, you don't act shy! :P Yup, secret! :X Stay strong!
loveyou
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HSK tomorrow, EARLY IN THE MORNING :(((((( Hope can wake up, if not should be skipping the whole thing. Am already very, very tired now.. My legs are aching like, :( noww! Ran 6 rounds just now and jumped stairs. Headed to JP with the peeps thereafter and walked and ate. I ate ALOTTT! ZOMG :((
Yadayada, I'm stopping here.

Tag replies.
YY: Hey! Okay, will relink you when I have my links back up(:
TingJun: Yeah!
jayda: Woahlala, thanks bitchface! =D Or rather, one-legged bitchface! :P
Bean: Hello, baby bean! No problem, heart you too!
Aizhen: thanks.

Impossible made possible!

2009-09-03T21:10:00.003+08:00

Sports carnival today, dk why felt so insecured before that. GEEZ. 1st round, played with 3s1. I admit, we were not well co-ordinated and all, lost. 2nd round, played with 3s3. WOW. We won them and we were all super happy/surprised, whatever you call it. 3rd round with 3s2. Won. Then our great principal decided that it was too late and stopped the game when we were in our final match. HOW GREAT/CLEVER/SUPER. Spoil the atmosphere. TSK. So, the last game with 3s5 will be held another day.
Overall, it was a great day. Had fun and loves this team now! :D Though I think I didn't perform well today. A little noob.
Great work to all the teammates:
Jayda, Charell, Jonathan, Javan, Kenny and LiZheng.

If your head is not that big, please wear a smaller hat. No point wearing such a big one and disgracing yourself in the end. Think before you do things or rather, talk. Don't be too full of yourself when you do not have the abilities to be so. Don't put people down or criticize them to the pits when you yourself can't even do better than them. You can't even do what you boasted to. With your arrogance, you could easily offend many people and unknowingly become a public enemy for many. Just because of your complacent and crude words, this happens. You'll never know it, cause you're too full of yourself. Just bear this in mind, people will treat you the way you treat them, karma will be revolving all the time. Just because you may get away with it sometimes, doesn't mean it will last forever. Cherish it while it last.

:P

2009-09-02T22:23:00.000+08:00

WOAHLALA (click)
Geez, jayda I admire you for having the courage to admit that!!! GEEEZ.
W-O-W. LOL!!!

No more sorrows.

2009-09-02T21:33:00.001+08:00

I should stop thinking so much! :/ and no more, no more sadness! Its going to be a happy day tomorrow! (at least that's what I hope) With the sports carnival tomorrow, it'll sure be an eventful day. At least I shouldn't be sad tomorrow. Perhaps being angry is better than sad! :D LOL. Abit absurd but whatever.
SHOULDBEHAPPY! :D

Tag replies
Bean: Eh, I'm not cruel! TSK. See her fall quite hilarious I think! :P
YunHong: Hahaha, Okay. Wah, eh. Don't anyhow go around call me OMPM leh. Abit paiseh one leh. Face abit angry only mahh!!! Tsk, spoil reputation sia!
jayda: woahlala, okay. you didn't lie! HAHAHA. see you tomorrow, love you too! (L) hahaha, cannot like that write la, later people call us arrogant siol! I abit paiseh one leh, must be modest, learn from them right, reserve 2nd place for us last year how pro. Too bad things turn out otherwise! :P Still anyhow push us right? Sigh, sighsigh! LOL.

The ceiling is falling.

2009-09-02T19:34:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, the feeling of everything's wrong just dawn upon you at the wrong point of time, when you're supposed to be so much happier. The feeling that nothing's going to help solve your problems, not matter what happens. That very hopeless feeling, always seem to aid in making you feel inferior, torpid and enervated. After multiple failures, you just can't find the determination to strive as hard as you once did. It feels sore. As much as you do not want it to show, it does.

Heart to heart.

2009-09-01T20:47:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a great day! :) Went to primary school to meetup with some friends but didn't go in due to the long and boring precedure that we had to follow to enter the school. Worse part is we can only stay in the concourse. So went to kfc with some mates, had a great time gossiping at the 'public enemy' in our school. Enjoyed the time fooling around too! :P Went to queesntown mrt to meet the 6B peeps and into QueenstownPri to look for Miss Tan. Spent an hour(or two) slacking in the canteen, feels great to be around those people again!!! =D
Train back to jp and ate. Went to the park thereafter and walked, talked and sat around. Took quite a few pictures too! All on facebook (:
Slacked the day through today!!! D: LOL. School for tomorrow, SPORTS CARNIVAL ON THURSDAY! :) Love it.
omg, time to reply tags! D:

Sheryl: LOL! Both sides win also can! But FuHaiFeng/CaiYun cuter eh! LeeYD should win mixed with LeeHJ! :( LOL. What, kick butts you jealous uh!!! :P (L) You too!
CaiJuan: BUDDY! (L)
Aizhen: No problem! (L)
Moley's Fan(cheowyi) : lol! WHATTT, how bout I'm not her fan, I don't cool her down! :P Only you're right. HAHA.
xinmei: Noooooo!!! Not meeeee! :P
Carolyn: LOL! Will, will! Love you to many bits!!! (L)
Charell: Really? LOL. I see.
jayda: LOL! Hi bitch! Awwww, poor girl D: At least mine doesn't leave blue-blacks, no? LOL
Eda: HAHA, no prob sis! Yeah, meet up soon! Haha, so how many happy cells do you generate per day?! LOL. Love you!
Bean: LOL! Yea, ice-skating, heart! =D Woahlala, you jio your boyf go ice-skating I where can reject!!! No problem, duh! Lovelove too! =D

2009-08-30T23:04:00.001+08:00

Today, I am sad.

Tonight's gonna be a good night(:

2009-08-29T22:47:00.001+08:00

Went for karate demo just now. The black tile hit my face :( Now got one small mark, but nevermind, it'll be gone soon enough! :D Went to study with aizhen and cheowyi thereafter(: Did alittle on chinese then they wakled around, went to kino and so on. Then cabbed to JE and went to mac to study(: Had a great time looking at the two fellas being lame! :P and from that, I conclude that lame-ness is contagious!!! LOL. Did finish my chinese work, not much considering the amount of time we spent but satisfying cause it's been long since I sat down to do my work!
Teacher's day will be on monday (: Going back to see teachers (:
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Hey B,
Stop being such a loser and abusing your authority, seriously. If you can, use your own means instead of using cowardice acts. Really, not funny. You know how much you suck? Hellofaloser. TSK! Prove me wrong if you think it is cause I doubt so. SF. Doubt you know what that means too but it doesn't matter, as long as I know what it means. I feel that you're just insecured, afraid of everything being such a SL. Okay, I know you don't know what it is again but I said, IT DOESN'T MATTER. You prolly won't read this anyway! But I just have to let it out. If you ever know how angry/pissed I am by your huge attitude problem/ loser-ness, geez, that might be great. Stop being a daddy's girl man, L! tsktsk. I am probably too pissed to continue and in the days to come, there might be more. Let's just see what you're gonna do from now, B.

P/S: Don't assume its you, unless you're sure of it.

LOL

2009-08-27T23:11:00.001+08:00

On second thoughts, I've decided to not do maths and start learning the english words that we've to learn for the test tomorrow. HEEEEEHEEEE. LOL

:D

2009-08-27T22:52:00.000+08:00

Today has been a relatively good day though it was a super long one! Had classes till 3pm then the HSK briefing and all. YAWN! Left early at 5 cause I couldn't take another minute in there though we had lots of fun laughing at jayda and my retarded answers!--
Came home and went dinner with family at NewYorkNewYork. :) Am going to attempt on the trigo worksheet now. Wish me luck, even though its not really going to help. I'll prolly fall asleep or get distracted by something halfway. TSK!
I'm tired now, so long!

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2009-08-25T21:08:00.000+08:00

Today was a bad day. Woke up late, skipped school. Went to school for training, but went to eat with the peeps first. They were very,very,VERY high. I wonder why too! Shucks. Laughing all the way back to school and all. Crazy fellas copying what each other were saying. Too crazy to be true.
Training was draining, hot, humid, tiring, and unbearable. Okay maybe not for the unbearable part but yea. Was in bad shape and couldn't play properly! :( Went home earlier, suppose to have tuition. THEN, screw, something happened. Damn angry/sad/fail.
Geez, if you think those words are consoling, THINK AGAIN. This is going overboard, that's not how you treat people.

:(

2009-08-24T20:24:00.000+08:00

Today was a horrible and lousy day. Am very tired now. Should be doing some work later before sleeping.
Life goes on..

Clever move.

2009-08-23T22:26:00.001+08:00

Had a great weekend, away from the books and all(not like I do get into them during the weekdays) but yeah, it's better. Was supposed to go to East Coast with family but it rained therefore went to shop and all. Had a great and yummy dinner :D So yeah, bye.
Love.

Tomorrow might never come.

2009-08-23T03:45:00.000+08:00

Is going to sleep now. Sleeping is the best remedy! :) Hope tomorrow will be a better day. Everything will be fine, won't it? D:
Tough people are not born… they are made when there was no one there to wipe their tears away.
Love,

Long winding road

2009-08-22T00:05:00.006+08:00

Sometimes, a lone tear will slip out from the side of your eye. Normally, you'll just wipe it away and pretend that nothing's happening but as you accumulate the tears and feelings, you get drawn further and further from the people you once knew so much about. Those that would call you in the middle of the nights just to talk and those that would help you so much when you're in need. All these times, you want to stop all these but you know that there isn't any way else for you to move on with except forward. No matter how tough it is, how lonely, you'll still have to walk it through cause at the end of the day, that's always the case. You won't be living when you're not feeling the pain and you won't be feeling the pain unless its life. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger and as time goes by, you'll learn bit by bit, that it isn't all as simple as it seems. Sometimes, you seem like you're building a wall up, refraining anyone from getting through, just because you feel the hurt, the pain and the frustration. If the wall has been there from the start, none of these would have happened but at the same time, all those memories wouldn't have been created too. There's always a reason for everything, you'll just have to find it out yourself. Weakness of attitude becomes weakness of character. Everyone has made mistakes before. Mistakes that can't be erased unless they haven't tried anything new to make any. Sometimes, its hard to feel things, even if you want to. Its because you've already been hurt that much, nothing bothers you anymore. Its not the same. Its hard to really try when you're not given chances. Its hard to mend things that have already been broken, time after time yet, it doesn't feel right. To know that you've not attempted to try to amend things but yet, give up straight away. All those worries and thoughts, only scaring yourself when in fact, you know what will happen. But sometimes, things have been changed that much that you're really not sure too. Already feeling tired and weary, you want to take a nice long sleep and wake up to find that everything is all normal and fine, but reality it is. Problems doesn't get solved that easily and to find the solution to the problem, you've to find the source of it. Yet, most of the times, the sources of the problems are minor issues. Never place your hopes up high cause when they fall, they'll fall harder than they're supposed to. Putting your hopes up high, just to watch them fall, isn't a very smart choice afterall. You begin to think, why're you doing all these. Just to realise that there's no answer to such a question.
Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one.
伤心总是难免的.

Speaking without words.

2009-08-21T22:21:00.002+08:00

Today, we had Maths Trail during PE cause Mdm Yee took away PE. I was station master for the rock climbing wall and I had to stand under the hot sun! :( It was great, I haven't had such a great time laughing at people for a long while! (okay, I know, sadist!) When they decided to give up, we were supposed to let them do forfeits for at least 3 mins. I think those who had forfeits at my station were pitiful! :P CheeYuan's group was the worst! I made Darryl carry CheeYuan and run round the bball court!! Then, we had training after school. We played well :) Played 2 matches and my energy was totally drained by then! D: Slacked around canteen after training for a little while before heading to eat and home! :)

Unfazed

2009-08-20T22:29:00.000+08:00

Today was a tiring/sticky/humid/bad/boring/sleepy (and all other bad things you can say) day! Chemistry was freaking irritating mind you. So much for staying up till 2+ to try to remember the freaking formulaes and trying to know how to use them when I forget again in the morning. I totally Zzz when I saw the paper! D: Was like "ahhh, great! How do I know how to do all these questions" TSK. Went through the paper and did the questions. Those freaking crazy ones I just left blank and skipped then went to the other questions behind. After finishing, I think I was like "ahh, wtv." and I went to sleep. -__- How clever. But nvm, not like I won't already be failing for it :/
Got back History paper. Quite okay. So yeah. Nothing else to say. Bye.

Time after time.

2009-08-19T22:29:00.001+08:00

So got back physics, english and a maths. Not good though. Failed A maths, as expected. YAWN. Chemistry tomorrow. Wtv. Screw chemistry. After tomorrow, I'll be able to take a break from things, for awhile that is.
Today was the worst day in this whole year, and trust me, that sucks pretty much. But wtv, I'm not going to let that bother me for now. There's still a freaking unfinished/incomprehensible chemistry to go through so yeah, great. Its not like I'll understand in the end but at least I think it should be worth a shot, no? Crap, this sucks.
Now, screw away.

Hard to trust now.

2009-08-18T22:49:00.000+08:00

Going to sleep now. hope I'll be able to wake up early otherwise, screw the exam

Frustrated

2009-08-18T22:19:00.000+08:00

E-Math paper tomorrow how great. Not like I'm not screwed enough yet. Zzz. After E-Math, chemistry on thursday. *faints* seriously, this sucks. Very tired now. Should be sleeping soon.
bye.

so a sorry solves all shit

Nothing's built to last

2009-08-17T22:10:00.001+08:00

Today, physics paper was relatively easy? As in the questions were not that hard but yeah. I still doubt I'll be able to score well. Why is my blogger still weird! :((( Was super tired today and slept after showering. Oh man, idk what to learn for history! :((( 3 paper left! :D Chemistry and E-Math are the killers! -_- I know nuts about chemistry!!! :S geez. Hope everything will be okay :)
BYE! :)

I KICK BUTTS :D

2009-08-16T21:32:00.000+08:00

Hi!
JEC sports hall>BukitPanjangPlaza(is that how you spell it?)>Home :)
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Today, I am very happy. I've finally overcomed the fear in my heart and fought with everything that I've got. Also, I'm very grateful that my referee wasn't some loser without any eyes! Today was a great day for me. In all, this week was one of the best weeks in my life. I love the things that happened today, most of them! :) Though ironically, I cried twice today! :( Yes, I know it is damn impuissant but whatever! First was because I found out my draw. Which was to fight against that CT aka BimboPrincess! (tsk) I didn't know why that happened too. It was damn screwed. I totally lost hope in winning. Thanks to Eda dear and the rest who kept encouraging me! Love you all! (L) Second, idk why too! But when I won, again, after twice failure, after my first win, I think I just practically broke down just beside of the mat. I WAS FREAKING HAPPY, no doubt!!! :DDDDDD
Went around JEC walking with all the darlings! :) We laughed about many things. :) Loved that so much! Went to kfc, and I ate chicky meal-_- FOR THE TOY! hahaha. Omg la! Like so childish! :X After tournament ended, went to BPP to watch them perform their demostration for the last week :) After that, few of us decided to be cute(act cute or rather) and join the ramen eating competition. Wah, I can't eat for god's sake after the KFC! :S PeiYi was great! She won second for goodness! I was amazed :D Then, ayaka was very cute! She wanted to take a photo with me! :) Surprised O: Then we took group photos and all. But, unfortunately, my stupid blogger is screwing up :( So I must post everything in one shot next time. How irritating. Geez. Though so, I'm still very,very,veryveryvery happy today! :)
I'm elated that the passion for karate is once again ignited. (though I'll be taking a week's break since ayaka's not going to be there to train us!) :P and, I'm very glad that we've all had that much fun today and I'm sure there'll be more of this! :) I love you all to bits and I love today. What can I say? I'm just very happy! So I hope that you are too! :)

RuiQi: TSK, I don't care if she's determined or not, I don't know why but I
just don't like her! >:@
XinYing: LOL, I don't know. I just don't like her! ~~ LOL. I prefer LYD to
win! :)
EDA!!: Hey darl! :D LOVE YOU, LOVEYOU, LOVEYOU TTM! :D Okay, though sounds
a little les but you know what I mean! (L)(L)(L) hahaha, she deserves that for
punching my nose! >:@ LOL. But I hit her jaws after that too. So whatever~ :P
hahaha, I KICK BUTTS! :D
Sheryl: LOL! I know. I watched live just now. Freaking sad xxf lost but
nevermind, today's a happy day! :D So shall not be sad! :) CaiYun and FuHaiFeng
won so yay! :)

2009-08-15T23:34:00.001+08:00

hey,

I wish that...

bye.
:(

YONEX-SUNRISE BWF World Championships 2009

2009-08-15T20:42:00.000+08:00

Hello. Today, I pretty much slacked at home :( I need to revise my physics!!! :S I'll go revise some before sleeping later :) Currently watching YONEX-SUNRISE BWF World Championships 2009 on SuperSports channel :))) Super hot matches today!
Results:
ChenJ Won TaufikH :D
LinD won SonyDK :D
XieXF won PiHY :D
Glad that they're playing for finals tomorrow! :) But most probably will be unable to watch :((( Saddening! :'(
The singles 1st are already confirmed for china :) China Team FTW :D
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Will be having Karate; Pesta Sukan Tournament tomorrow at JurongEastSportsComplex :( Very nervous/scared/ whatever you call it :S Wonder who I'll be fighting tomorrow? D: Geez. I hope it'll all turn out well.

YONEX-SUNRISE BWF World Championships 2009

2009-08-14T20:22:00.004+08:00

YESSSS!!!
XieXF just won ZhouM!!! :DDDDDDD Super cool! :)
Others:
LinD won PeterHG :)))))) but :(((( cause its PHG.
phg rocks :) but lin dan rocks even more! :))
PiHY won JuliaS :)
ChenJ won SimonS!!! :DDD
KKK/TanBH won HowardB/TonyG
ThomasL/KamillaR won ZhengB/JinM :(
LuL won TineR D:
TaufikH won JanOJ :)
NovaW/LiliyanaN won DijuV/JwalaG :)
ZhangYW/ ZhaoTT won HaJE/KimMJ ! :DD

:D

2009-08-14T17:21:00.003+08:00

Today:
School (which we had Chinese and A Maths CT) , Home(showered), JP( collect stuffs :D ), Studying w Russell :)

And I'm still studying! :D I've already completed one maths ws! :)))))
I'm happy todayyyy! :DDD
SMILE, cause we're all happy today! :)

thanks :)

YONEX-SUNRISE BWF World Championships 2009

2009-08-14T17:15:00.001+08:00

BWF Yonex Sunrise Championships 2009
CaiY/FuHF WON! :)
LeeYD/LeeHJ WON! :)
HeHB/YuY lost. D:
Cross my fingers, cause I hope XieXF will win!!! :D
AND LinD and ChenJ andand all those that I like!!!!!! :)

BWF- Yonex Sunrise 2009

2009-08-13T17:24:00.001+08:00

Just home in time to watch LinD play with DickyP! :D I hope LinD wins!!! :D
Bye. Got to go for tuition :(
[EDIT] 5.47pm
WOOOOHOOO, LinD won! :DDDDD (L)(L)(L) 21-11, 21-11 Okay really got to go. Otherwise tomorrow's paper will be a goner. Not like it already is not but yeah! BYEEE!
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Geez

2009-08-12T22:33:00.003+08:00

A day without going to school is fabulous. Got to sleep till noon+ :D However, they had 4 periods of maths today(which was partly why I didn't want to go) and Mdm Yee taught new stuffs!!! D:
Which is why I'm going to die during maths tomorrow. For god's sake, we'll be having 6 periods of maths tomorrow, 6 PERIODS. That's tantamount to death :( I hope I don't fall asleep! :) Got to make it a point to wake up on time. Couldn't wake up on time today(which was why I didn't want to go also).

I don't feel the determination to do anything anymore :(((

Undefined.

2009-08-10T21:49:00.002+08:00

Went to Sentosa with mum and bro today in the morning. Went Vivo and JP thereafter and home. Showered and slept(yes, I was that tired!) woke up at 9+ and here I am on the comp :D Pictures another day, seriously very lazy now!!! :)
bye.

2009-08-09T22:54:00.002+08:00

Geez, something's wrong with the bluetooth so I guess I'll just have to update the videos and pictures another time. promise! :)

Try my best, to maintain a smile.

2009-08-09T19:56:00.005+08:00

Went to watch the karate demonstration at sembawang with russell and wayne just now. It was simply amazing :) Everyone did a great job! Russell and Wayne took part in the ramen eating competition thereafter. It was truly comical. We were all supporting for them and laughing our guts out! :D The winner got a plasma tv and the 2 other winners got vouchers or some other stuffs. Will post the pictures and videos of them doing the katas later? :)
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Falling real hard and getting back up, gaining more injuries in the process. Having your body unable to function in a proper manner, you laugh hysterically and yet, feel like crying at the same time. Holding back your tears, fighting with your emotions but failing in the end. Having to suffer with the breakdown and watch as others stand to look, unable to think of a solution to help. Then, when a warm hand comes and help, you feel the relief. All you need was some time alone, to compose yourself. Trying so hard to not cry resulted in the outbreak of more tears. The pain, physically and mentally was also causing exhaustion to your body and mind. Walking out, looking refreshed, as though you're alright now and successful for being able to hold back the tears for a short period of time. Unknowingly yet surprisingly, your body just decided to give up on forcing the tears back and release them all out, uncontrollably. You were at a lost of what to do. Feeling like a weakling, a complete loser, you walked around, hoping for some peace, thinking time would be able to help find some equanimity. Hoping that soon, you'll be oblivious to the surroundings and perhaps, someday, have an insouciant feel.
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Eda: Thanks sister!! You've been a great companion today. Probably everyday! You always seem to make me feel so much better after everything, always confiding in me even though I'm unable to do the same! :) Always in a study frenzy and having me slacking beside you, making me feel bad! :P The one who always has a solution to every problem and the one who's always comforting me whenever something goes wrong or when I feel down. Always making me laugh with your oh-so-ever-scared- of-tickles and all. Love you for who you are so stay that way dear! (L)(L)(L)

伤心总是难免的

2009-08-09T00:27:00.005+08:00

Normal day. Going to sembawang for the japan festival tomorrow + to see all those darlings perform and demostrate their katas on stage! (:
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I hate being alone. I hate having no one to talk to and the scary feeling of loneliness. The horrible thoughts that creeps up to you and scare you out of your wits. Those "what ifs" and "if only" coming up in your head, trying to take over and being successful with it most of the times. Those memories that's never gonna come back, crawling into your mind subconsciously and before you know it, you feel the pain of it. Things that you do not want to happen but inevitably, they do. All these things, hurting so badly. I try so hard not to let anything show, only to feel worse afterwards. Trying to deny and delude, failing at all attempts to do so. Thinking so much, but unable to do anything about it. Feeling like the biggest loser, ever.

I can't find serenity in anything I do anymore :(

Feeling lousy...

2009-08-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

I supposed I just slacked the whole day after waking up late for school and decided not to go since its just for an hour+ thus I went back to sleep and woke up at 3.40. I had a dream, a real good one. Something that haven't been so for very long. Something I want so badly for it to happen but it does not. Went for karate thereafter at 7+. Sparred :)
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I'm sorry I can't focus on what I'm supposed to be focused on. I can't feel the seriousness and sadness when I'm supposed to. I can't be in the mood that I'm supposed to be in. I can't be everything I need to until it all falls down and back in place then do the effects wear off. Then do I feel all that I need to and by then, everything is over. Gone and done with.

Not well :(

2009-08-06T19:59:00.009+08:00

today:
school, training, home.
tiring day? late in the morning how great. stupid bus, came 20 over minutes late :( to think I woke up early in order to not be late :(((
tomorrow's the celebration of ndp in school, which also means early release! :) but I'll probably come home and sleep, yes, pig whatever you call it.
didn't do much for training just played some games. thereafter, went to canteen, talked with cheowyi and buddy accompanied me to cab back as I was not feeling well while waiting for her wee-wee~ :(

dear friend:
Although we haven't talked in quite awhile, I hope that you will cheer up, smile and most importantly stay strong. You've been through so much worst than this and since you were able to withstand it all, this should not be a problem too! Although you're facing alot of problems and stress to perform well now, you have to bear in mind that you're a human too and that you do need a break. It's alright to let out your emotions from time to time and you don't have to feel bad about it. You've changed alot since we first met, thats for sure and I hope that it'll only change for the better. Life is short, learn to enjoy it. :)

I really do not know what else to say.
ttys?

SICK!

2009-08-06T00:00:00.001+08:00

headache's really getting out of hand now. I swear I'm freaking dying. Rejoice people out there.
Okay, night, bye.

sick.

2009-08-05T22:28:00.000+08:00

today:
doctor's, palm gardens, karate, home
didn't attend school today. wasn't feeling well. up till now. great. having super bad headaches which causes me to feel like vomitting. really, its that bad but still had to go for karate cause of the upcoming tournament. real afraid. mum said the headache might be due to lack of sleep/stress. how fabulous. hope this shit just goes away, asap! :(((

i probably have nothing else to say.

I tried to look into your eyes.

2009-08-04T23:06:00.000+08:00

today,
school, training, home, tuition, night jog, home.
training was great, super exhausted after that.
looking forward to tomorrow, meeting eda sister to study and thereafter pool before going for karate. might be skipping chinese after school. unsure. Have to go take passport photo sized shots for the karate form and license. How great.
its when the world leaves you alone to despair and wallop in self-pity, that you know you're alone now..

CaiJuan: Love you too buddy! (L)
Jovin: Yup(:
Moley's ~~fan~~ LOVER; CheowYi: Oh, so
I'm afraid that she knows that we're calling her moley? LOL. Can la, but you got
to sit behind abit. Too front I can't read my book! :( Yeah, you always say buy
then in the end always give until finish!!! :'((((

Just a lonely soul.

2009-08-04T22:38:00.001+08:00

going to take a shower, be right back.
Just returned from a weird night jog :S

Even the best falls down sometime.

2009-08-03T21:40:00.001+08:00

I'm back, I went for ndp preview with my cousins and their family! :D Pictures will be uploaded another day(: Quite nice, and guess what! We saw PeiYi on the big screen! Like in her karate gi and with the super prominent red and white singapore flag on! We all got shocked! :)
Had remedial till 3.30+ today! Tiredtiredtired. Just woke up from my nap :D
Gotta revise through some chemistry later(:
Karate tournament on 16th August! :S I need to lose lots of fats/weight desperately! Cause there will be a weigh in for my age category for this tournament!! -faints-Really damn scared of it. I haven't been in good shape recently, for everything. I hope I won't lose in the first round! :(((

So ever lonely.

2009-08-02T22:38:00.001+08:00

I will be back tomorrow. bye

Nothing else to say

2009-07-31T00:36:00.004+08:00

Reached school at 7.30 today, late. Great, as always. Today alot of people late, MrGovind decided to have detention! :(( Then school, tests for english and chinese. Quite okay. After school, went BubbleTea Shop with Jayda, Christine and my love. LOL. Jovin or rather. Had maths thereafter. I think I'm down with a minor flu! :O AND SOON I'LL HAVE FEVER AND THEN I'LL BE ABSENT FROM SCHOOL! YAY. I wished. After maths class, went to find MrGovind. Didn't go for training as I supposedly have a physics test after school and plus my detention. In the end, couldn't find MrLoh therefore, no test. Probably tomorrow. Then went to find MrGovind with LiZheng. We were given a choice to either stay back till 7pm or write a reflection to promise not to be late anymore. As if we'll be able to keep to that. LiZheng wrote his finish pretty quickly. Looked at his and then proceeded to write mine. and ShuWuen said something damn comical. Cause I wrote in the reflection even with 3 alarm clocks, I am unable to wake up and always late. Then Javan asked why I always late. Then ShuWuen happily replied "因为她是猪！你知道，她有3 ah-lam(alarm) clocks 也醒不来吗？" We laughed like LOL. Then Javan said something like Fire Ah-lam then shuwuen started laughing too! Yadayadayada, then I reached home and read my book and slept from 5 till 9pm.
Tiring day. Bye.

Beautiful melody with messed up lyrics.

2009-07-27T20:26:00.001+08:00

School was, fast today at least thats what I think. Not really sure though, everything past in a swirl and school end before I knew. Didn't really bother to think much. Waited for maybel and buddy till 3+ then went to IMM. Hilarious much, I guess my brain finally started functioning from there. Went to the building opposite IMM to service my phone :((( They accompanied me, thanks! After reaching the fround level, we realised it was raining, HEAVILY. Then we saw a woman walking on the road, the wind blow, her skirt flew up since it was a short one. ROFL, seriously comical. Walking halfway, the wind blow, the whole umbrella that I was sharing w maybel turned inverted. Laughed my guts out. Hilarious much. I think I laughed almost 3/4 of the walking journey back. Talk about craziness. We had great fun!(: Went to eat thereafter and walked around IMM till 6.20. Then accompanied maybel to take bus to Yuhua Village where she has her tuition. Went back home from there. Had somewhat a total mind-block/blank on the journey back home. Wow. I couldn't remember everything that I was thinking on the bus. Its good at some point in time to be like that! :D

你不知道，因为这事件已经变化了.

2009-07-26T22:02:00.004+08:00

So many things happen in life, everything for a reason. Life is not called life if everything goes by your way. You've got to learn to live and let live and accept people for who they are. Regardless of what happens, there'll always be someone in your life to care for you. They will always be there. You might not know it but it doesn't mean it is not so.
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No matter how sad, pained or dejected you feel, let others know for it is not good to bottle things up. As time goes by, everything accumulated will somehow all come out at once. The impact will be larger, the damage will be bigger, the pain will be more. Life is short, therefore learn to enjoy life. Live it to the fullest and live without regrets. Do what you think is right, don't live with regrets. Life will be so much more enjoyable when it is so.

Shouldn't have gone our seperate ways.

2009-07-26T21:13:00.006+08:00

I don't know what has been going on the past few days. Everything has been a blur. Skipped karate today, again. I think I haven't gone in a quite a long while. 4 lessons missed at least. That aside, it'll be monday tomorrow, meaning, school :( On a lighter note, there'll be PE tomorrow (: I hope.

EDA: Hey(: Thanks! (L) school is so out all the same? :O What do you mean
by that? Teehee, love you too! (L)(L) Yup, very soon! This wednesday right? If
nothing pops up after school(like those horrible classes) I'll come find you
okay! See you soon darl.
Bean:Wah, I so scared siol. Bean want sue me. So which lawyer will you
employ? Mr bean? :O TSKTSK. Hilarious much. I shall then sue you for damaging of reputation and your plan will backfire! :D Muahaha, geezus, so evil. LOL

I fear I can't take

Roses with thorns

2009-07-24T22:49:00.003+08:00

A Maths, MA was a killer. The questions were okay but the time taken to think was like -- Urgh. GG. Blogger has a little problem-_- Stupid. If it continues, I might stop posting for awhile. Not like I update daily now anymore:( boring life.
bye

2009-07-22T22:55:00.003+08:00

I realised I haven't updated for awhile already. Geez. But there's nothing much to say ain't there? Chinese O level, listening comprehension today. Not that bad. Considering oral was a trillion times worst. Training tomorrow!(L)
bye

idk what's happening

Because you've changed.

2009-07-18T19:37:00.007+08:00

Went out with Russell, Keith, Andre just now to ice-skating rink. Hilarious much. Skate-d for 1h30m then decided to stop, cause they were complaing of the pain! laughs! Super funny!(: Will post pictures later (:
Don't know if should go for karate tomorrow, no one will be there to guide us through, boring. *yawn* BADMINTON WILL BE STARTING ON MONDAY! (L)(L)(L) joy to the world! :D
But its quite ridiculous to have CCA for only 45 minutes. You might as well not have it. TSK.
and, I have a confession to make... RUSSELL ACT CUTE!!!!
LaughOutLoud! :D
idk why, but my eyes seems like its gna pop out --
like you cared
smiling is not as easy as it seems.

Messed up.

2009-07-16T21:48:00.003+08:00

SCREWED. UP. CHINESE. ORAL. GREAT.

Other than that, today was just another average day. Went for jap buffet with mum and bro just now. Yum Yum :) Going out with karate peeps on saturday! (L)(L)(L) Super excited. Oh, and Harry Potter/Half Blood Prince is OUT!!! today. :DD Going to do maths now.
bye

learn to not be sad.

Cover up.

2009-07-14T21:55:00.004+08:00

I totally screwed up the chinese speech in front of the class today. Thank god there's no marks for it. I think I'm going to ask for a transfer back to Zhang老师's class. Today was a really bad day, no doubt :((((( My aches are still here. Stupid hand/leg/back everything. O level chinese oral the day after next, shucks. I'll seriously screw that up, although I hope not. Wish me luck.
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On a brighter note, trainings will resume next week. Though stamina has dropped a great deal and I seriously suck at everything now, I still look forward to it.
Great, I'm going to rely on some stupid FMLs to cheer up now.
Becoming all so emotional like a weakling.

It all falls apart.

2009-07-13T21:28:00.004+08:00

Today has been a devastating day, for me. My whole body ached the moment I woke up, no kidding. I couldn't run my 2.4km. Like the worst I've ever ran, seriously speaking. I swore I walked through more than 3/4 of the run. Like screw this, my stitch hurt like :( X-Country this year will not be a breeze no more, no more 1st! Dang, I think I prolly won't get into top 25 even! :((((((( *faints* super ulti. Wonder what happened. I NEED MY TRAININGS BACKKKKK! :( darn. this sucks. and now, I have to rush out all the work. Shucks.
Veryveryvery sad.

Jamie: Okay(:
Meitian: Hi. Oh, okay.
Wayne: I don't know too. :O
maybel: NAH. I would offer it to you, in the best ways possible. Probably
in a sedan? :O But the sedan like will break leh! :O YES, it is scary! :S
HanHua: Hi(:
shuwuen: hello, calling yourself? :O
YARLEE: Yes, I remember you(: Okay, no problem(:
cheowyi: TSK. I'm not cheena, I love moley teacher's class, but definitely
not her. Please do not associate me with liking her. NOT EVEN THE THOUGHT OF IT!
hahaha. :P I think you're the one who likes her right! :P

Thinking of it all.

2009-07-12T23:01:00.008+08:00

Went for karate in the morning, super fun! I had to spar with peiru and I was claiming that I didn't wanna die that young to eda dear(L)! HAHAHA. She totally laughed at me:( TskTsk. Wasn't that bad(: At least, I survived through it! :D HAHAHA. 4 of them are going to Ku-Ching on 19th, good luck peeps! :D Couldn't go, cause will probably miss 7 days of school or so. BUT it doesn't really make a difference, cause I'm always late/pon-ing schools -_- NO, I shan't do that again! LOL. Went to central with cousins after karate, had subway!!! (L) but, bad thing is that, I was so hungry, I ordered a FOOTLONG meatball marinara and ate it finish before my other 3 cousins who were all eating 6-inch! SHUCKS. Talk about growing fat:((((( Went to sticky to buy some sticky(s) LOL. Believe it or not, the guy actually gave us the ends of the candy. ITS ULTRA BIG AND HEAVY CAN! -_- I was like what is it. Then my cousin handed it to me. I didn't expect it to be that heavy, and my hand went down -- LOL. literally.
Slept from 2-8, so satisfying! :D Woke up, went on plurk and damn funny! LOL, I shall not elaborate here(: Went to FML and LOL-ed at their entries for the thousandth time. LOL.

The size of the candy end compared to the size of a sticky. roflmao.

Candy end. I think It'll probably end up in the trash bin. Whoever eats it is gonna get diabetes, 100% chop stamp gurantee. LOL.

Some FML(s) :)

Today, my girlfriend dumped me proclaiming she wanted someone more like her "Edward". I asked her who Edward was. She held up a copy her "Twilight" book. She was talking about a fictional vampire. FML

Today, my husband dropped me off at work, ten minutes later I got a text saying" I just dropped the b*tch off I'll be there in a few baby, miss you". I asked him about it he said he "I dont know what youre talking about Megan". My name isnt Megan, not even close. FML

Today, I was talked into having sex with my boyfriend of 4 years. I had always wanted to wait till marriage but my boyfriend convinced me otherwise. Once we were done, he said he could never marry me because I was no longer pure. FML

Today, my daughter asked me when was the first time I had sex. After I told her 22 she quickly shouted, "Beat ya!" She's thirteen. FML

Today, I told my mom about my night terrors in which I am laying in a ditch with people shooting at me, and I have no ammunition to defend myself. She told me I should stop being such a whiny bitch, and to grow up and be a man. I am 20 and got back from Iraq 10 months ago. FML

Today, I was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. I called all my family members to invite them over this evening because I had some very important news for them that could not wait. They all declined the invite. When I asked why, they said they were going to my cousins to watch his new TV. FML

Today, I texted my college boyfriend to tell him how terrible I felt about cheating. He replied saying he was so relieved because he had been cheating on me with a girl in his dorm. I was talking about my math exam. FML

Today, I went to the water park, and got in a line on a staircase to get on a waterslide. A couple minutes in, I feel a large amount of warm liquid drip on my head. Seconds later, a crying girl was being lead down the stairs being told that 'everyone wets themselves sometimes'. FML

Today, I was attempting to teach a bunch of 2nd~5th graders on why it's so important to face your fears and try your best. It was going pretty well, until I was attacked by a pair of butterflies. I am afraid of butterflies - I ran away screaming like a little girl. FML

Today, I forgot to do my French homework, but since it was an online worksheet, I told my teacher my internet wasn't working. I told her with an e-mail. FML

Today, I was at the park when I saw a homeless man sleeping on a bench. I thought it would be funny to throw a small rock at him. He thought it would be funny to pull out his knife and chase me for six blocks. FML

Today, I woke up a little after seven. I felt sick to my stomach because last night was my bachelor party and I drank more than I ever have before. I checked my phone, and I had received 42 missed calls. It was seven o'clock pm. Today was my wedding day. FML

Today, my family and I were at a restaurant. We're Swedish and love talking about people in our language because no one ever understands here. I decided to comment about how ugly the girl at the next table was. She turned around and goes "Dra åt helvete." That's Swedish for "Go to hell." FML

Today, I was eating cereal and decided to warm it up to see what it tasted like. So, using a candle in the room I placed my spoon over the flame and waited to see if it heated up. Pleased with my silly experiment, I put the spoon back in my mouth. I now can't talk because of my swollen tongue. FML

Today, I went to the movies with some girlfriends. The guy behind us was making these pervy, heavy breathing noises, so we threw some popcorn at him. When the movie finished, we saw him in a wheelchair - with a breathing tube sticking out of his neck. FML

totally, LOL! laughs.

I thought I know you.

2009-07-09T21:20:00.004+08:00

Just woke up from my nap. -YAWN- I'm gonna do my english, 'dare to dream' compo later and the 'lies' compo and maybe the internet compos. -faints- so many compositions. Chinese class was okay today, read the book with the standard answer, I read till I almost fainted. Super long. At least I finished(: Though that's the case, but I forgotten the answers already! D:
Bye.

Eda: Teehee, no one would have expected that to come out of a RGS student's
mouth eh. laughs. Yupp(: See you on sunday then, love plenty! (L)(L)(L)
cheowyiAKAzhaoqi: LOL. Okay(: I suck, lollipop! :D laughslaughs.

Like I care anymore.

2009-07-08T22:35:00.002+08:00

Woke up late, went to school only at 9+. Reached school during recess, 10+. Tsk, managed to sneak pass the guard.
Just learnt that chinese class is split, dang, pathetic number of girls in the class. like, 5?! amazing or what. Tard. Nothing else to say, bs.
Bye.

You don't know me

daijoubu, daijoubu.

2009-07-07T22:56:00.004+08:00

Didn't attend school today(: Great. No maths teacher again, so, no big deal. They did Physics SPA today D: But its alright. Nevermind, I won't talk on.
bye.

Bulletproof.

2009-07-06T02:02:00.005+08:00

Y.A.W.N!
Going to meet the math group for maths project tomorrow, EARLY IN THE MORNING! :( I hope I can wake up on time, seriously. Will complete the project tomorrow. Should be going pool after that(: I think. Nevermind. I tried to think of things to post about. Decent stuff, to make it a decent post, after so long. But, my brain is somewhat blank. So, bye.

Daijoubu.

Happy Birthday(:

2009-07-06T00:39:00.002+08:00

happy birthday, aizhen.

Stoned.

2009-07-06T00:13:00.006+08:00

Slacked the whole day at home. Didn't go for karate cause was sick. Sore throat and flu :(
very tired. veryveryvery tired now.

Countdown

2009-07-04T23:46:00.005+08:00

Woohoo. My mental and physical form are both thorougly exhausted!!!
Went to meet R at noon then meet the peeps. THEY ATTEMPTED TO KILL ME, OF SHOCK by letting me try a round of L4D at A(s) house. Seriously, not funny. Thereafter, we went to play bball, from 2.20-4.20, UNDER THE HOT SUN! zomg, sure black one! D:
Went to play pool from 5-7. teehee. pool, pool, pool. Have been pool-ing alot the past few days. Cool! :D Tagged with K and lost to A and R, 3 TIMES IN A ROW! D: nevermind, I'll go hone my skills and own you two next time! :D
Went to A(s)'s house to watch tv. Exciting. tsk. Then they started to play PS3. fun game, forgotten the name alr! O: Played the game until 9 before going off.
Had a veryveryvery fun day with the peeps, always up for everything. I had a great time!
bye(:

I'll be fine (:

2009-07-03T22:49:00.002+08:00

Went to play badminton just now with peeps. fun(: A lil tiring. Tired. Overall, great but my sole's having the same old problem. Pain :( Idk what happened, always happens. Irritating. Alright, spare all the crap.
Goodbye.

Can't hold on.

2009-07-02T19:45:00.007+08:00

Yipeedee. Didn't attend school today. Who would, having to stay awake in Aurelia Lin's maths class for 4 periods. It's tantamount to hell D: Her MoralEd class was already bad enough to begin with and now maths? Christine was like I'm the only one who didn't go to school today but its alright. I don't have to suffer sleeping on that hard table in school.
Finally, a good sleep for this whole week. Tomorrow will be friday! :D School for 4 hours(?) Cause it ends at 12.30 alr. Super happy.
Best part is will be leaving earlier. Probably at 11.45 or so to go see the AYG village. Cool(: After AYG thing, going play badminton with friends. :D:D:D:D Looking forward. Haven't played like for 8 whole days already after CCA got cancelled. -faints-
I think I'll post tomorrow(:

jen: O: who you? Yeah (:
CaiJuan: hahaha, buddy! See you tomorrow! (L)
H.uanYu: Thanks(:
Xavier: hello! Yeah, the one from NH? (:

c'est la vie

2009-06-30T22:27:00.003+08:00

School was great today! :D Will update tomorrow. Bye(:

Do you hear me

2009-06-29T22:09:00.004+08:00

School was stupid, miserable, retarded but most of all, tiring! :( I think I slept through chemistry. Might have a change of physics teacher! D: NO GOOD! I'm veryveryveryvery tired now hence, I'll be sleeping soon.
bye

Monday Blues

2009-06-28T22:20:00.003+08:00

Its not even monday and I'm fretting for it already. Great. I've not finish like um, how much of my workload. Or rather, I've only finished one out of all of my homework! D: Seriously speaking, I doubt I'll be able to wake up on time. Looking at the number of times I was unable to wake up for morning training during the holidays, there's a great chance I'll end up sleeping in and waking up probably only in the noon. laughs. my eyes are already super tired, eyelids will close shut, any moment. dang.
oh, kata seminar today was GREAT. didn't really learn cause alr know those kata(s) that were taught. The rest will be taught during lessons and all, hopefully(:
OHOH, and do you know that hugs can lower blood pressure and stimulate the release of bonding hormones, oxytocin.(credit to shaozun)
Therefore, everyone, HUG MORE! :DD

Life's a rollercoaster ride.

2009-06-27T23:50:00.004+08:00

Went for karate, kumite seminar just now in the afternoon(: Had a hell-of-a-blast! :D Super amazing(L) Laughed alotalot!(: Learnt alot, like throwing and all! ~~If you wanna get a brain concussion, there's the best place!~~ I shall not elaborate! Tomorrow there'll be kata seminar! D: damn scared
bye

To extricate from it altogether.

2009-06-26T19:54:00.003+08:00

I almost got killed just now by a stupid car when I was riding the bike. LOL? not literally though. luckily, the driver was not in the car. nevermind, I shall not elaborate on this senseless topic. going for dinner, be right back to blog, later.
bye

Within grasp.

2009-06-26T17:46:00.002+08:00

currently at maybel's house. will update later? I think.
bye.

New Divide

2009-06-25T15:21:00.007+08:00

As promised, pictures.
ShiaL and MeganF.

MeganF in the first Transformers Movie.

MeganF (L)

Josh Duhamel(L) in the first movie.

(L)(L) Husband of Fergie.

Nothing else, didn't go for training(SHUCKS) like how many times this week alr! :(((( Slept in cause I was too tired. Idk why but I woke up with aches on my waist area, probably due to the sit-ups yesterday. Dang. Will be posting pistures of my ArcSaber10 in time to come. Teeeheeeee! :D Now the doubles pair are all using ArcSaber10, super bond. ROFL.

Transformers; Revenge Of The Fallen

2009-06-25T01:09:00.005+08:00

Went to watch the first night/opening of Transformers, ROTF with my cousins. Overall, quite nice. amusing or rather. duration of the show was 2hours and 30minutes.
Plot was okay, hard to grasp initially, especially if you're slow. Action was jammed-pack, aplenty, maybe alittle too much but it was good for me. Some parts were seriously hilarious, like the small lil robot trying to hump megan fox(L) [not literally]
Great actors and actresses, like Josh Duhamel(L)(L), Megan Fox(L)(L) and Shia LaBeouf (though I don't really like him, but I have to admit, his acting was quite good). Megan fox was darn hot in the movie, probably even hotter than the previous! :D This movie's all about action, can't keep your eyes closed for too long and definitely, it includes more romance between Sam and Mikaela (in-show).
For entertainment wise, this show is great, or rather, fabulous! But if you're looking for a story plot, maybe try another one. The animation in this is P-E-R-F-E-C-T, absolutely flawless, as always. I don't think it deserved that 0.5/5 stars on that website(forgotten).
Probably about 6 or 7 /10? O:
idk, personal point of view. Yup(:
It's late, I'm going to sleep, having training tomorrow OHOH! and I've gotten my baby already! (L) Arc Saber10, sintec. Super hot red racket. Posting the pictures soon! and definitely those of Josh Duhamel and Megan Fox! (L)
Uber Greatness! :D

Insomia

2009-06-22T17:16:00.006+08:00

walked around to find suitable rackets with maybel and sz. walked till my legs were on the verge of breaking, seriously speaking. laughs. ended up taking the wrong bus so we had to alight at the next stop and walk,walk,WALK! geez. super tiring. and considering the fact that I only had an hour of sleep the night before that's a torture--

should be buying a racket with maybel on wednesday(:

sintec, ARC SABER 10! (L)

Next goal will have to be Li-Ning, N30 ROCKS. be it for collection or usage cause its super pretty! white and pink. and the best part is, XieXF uses it too. LOL.

DJARUM INDONESIA SUPER SERIES 2009

2009-06-21T23:00:00.005+08:00

Geez, didn't watch the live scores just now -_-
slept from 1 to 7, had karate in the morning.

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LeeYD/JungJS won the mens doubles! D:
FuHF/Cy didn't. urgh, but either way its good(:
ZhengB/JinM won XD playing against LeeYD/LeeHJ!!! D:
WangL lost to NehwalS for WS!!! Stupid, win XieXF then lose in finals -_-
LeeCW won Taufik for MS.
That officially marks the end of the jakarta open ):
To end this post, afew pictures of LeeYD! :D

During Olympics; gold medalist O:

(L)

I know I said LeeYD but still, here's LinD/XieXF

DJARUM INDONESIA SUPER SERIES 2009

2009-06-20T15:09:00.007+08:00

I slept at 6.24 am in the morning just to wake up at 11.23am. LOL.
going to watch live scores at 5pm later (:
XXF vs WangLin. zomg!!! I HOPE XXF WINS!!! :DDD [WS]
LEEYD/LEEHJ playing w DENMARK, winwinwin! (: [XD]
LeeYD/JungJS playing with INDO, olympic gold medalist. [MD]
FuHF/CaiY playing with KKK and TBH! ZOMG, JY! [MD]
ZhengB/JinM playing with DENMARK! (: [XD]
ChenJ playing with LCW! ZOMGZOMG! Hope ChenJ win! [MS]

live scores won't start till 5pm!!! AHHHH. boringggg. Hope XXF wins!!!

[EDIT]
6:08PM
LIVE SCORES STARTED.

8:02PM
FHF(L) AND CY WON MAS KKK/TBH! :DD

8:22PM
oh man, I have a very bad feeling for XXF! :(((((

8:53PM
OH MAN, XXF LOST TO WangL. damn sad!!! :((((((((
siansian!
LCW with ChenJ now, hope ChenJ wins,though hard as it is! :D

11:53PM
LeeYD WON BOTH XD AND MD! TALK ABOUT PRONESS!
He's damn IMBA! :D
ZhengB/JinM won the XD, will be playing against LYD/LHJ tomorrow!!! O:
LeeCW won ChenJ :(((

11:57PM
ZOMGZOMG, FuHF/CaiY will be playing with LeeYD/JungJS!!!
shucks, who to support! O: oh nooooooo!!!
[/EDIT]

DJARUM INDONESIA SUPER SERIES 2009

2009-06-19T20:56:00.005+08:00

I think my body's malfunctioning! I've been super dizzy throughout the whole day :(
On a lighter note, XIEXINGFANG(L) WON sayaka sato today! :D
FuHaiFeng(L)/CaiYun won HowardBach/TonyGunawan[USA]! :D
LeeYongDae/JungJaeSung won [MAS] ! :D

On a heavier note,
LINDAN LOST!!! WTFBBQCHICKENNUGGET! HOW CAN!!!!!! But at least he lost to chenjin! (:
not that bad. BUT STILL, lindan lose?!?!?! ZOMG. damn sad la! :((((( but at least is 3 sets (:
& XIEZHONGBO/ZHANGYAWEN LOST to denmark! :((((

[EDIT]
9:00PM
LeeChongWei won ParkSunHwan[KOREA]

11:02PM
ZOMGZOMG!!! PETER GADE LOST TO TAUFIK! :(((((((
3rd set, 20-22. sooo close! :( :(
[/EDIT]

~~PeterGade will be playing with Taufik Hidayat later! I HOPE PETER HOEG GADE WINS! :D~~

DJARUM INDONESIA SUPER SERIES 2009

2009-06-18T17:19:00.010+08:00

DJARUM INDONESIA SUPER SERIES 2009
I'm watching the lives scores now!
Sg's hendri and hendra are competing against olympic num 1, markis kido and hendra[indo]. currently in third match, we're leading, 8-4.
Malaysia's KKK and Ng Hui Lin is competing with Lee Yong Dae and Lee Hyo Jung[Korea], in first match, 7 all. hope leeyongdae wins! :D
Peter gade won the vietnam (nguyen guy that won leechongwei in Aviva)!!! :D
Anthony Clark and Nathan Robertson lost to Luluk Hadiyanto and Joko Riyadi[Indo] :(
BOONSAK(L) will be up next, with taufik hidayat. ZOMG. I hope boonsak wins!!! :S
XIEXINGFANG(L)(L) WON IN THE AFTERNOON ALR! :D coolio! (in 26 minutes! super short)
xiezhongbo and zhangyawen as well as zhengbo and jinma won too.
LINDAN(L) will be up later. :D
zhangyawen and zhaotingting will be playing WD with some person and donna kellog. ZOMG.
CHENJIN will be playing against dicky palyama. LOL.
FUHAIFENG & CAIYUN will be playing later on in the night too! :D

I wonder how live scores can make me that excited!!! will be updating later for the results! :D

[EDIT]
SG's mens doubles lost to INDO's olympic gold medalist at the third set by a mere of 3 points. nice try!
LEEYONGDAE(L) and LEEHYOJUNG WON! :D
Boonsak's losing to Taufik Hidayat, first set, 17-21! :(
WangYiHan winning Thai's Porntip.
BOONSAK LOST TO TAUFIK HIDAYAT! :( but its alright. BOONSAK ROCKSROCKSROCKS!
ZhangYaWen and ZhaoTingTing is ~~playing now~~ WON!(:
CHEN JIN WON!!! :DD
leeyongdae playing again!!! SO HOT! playing MD now.
later got fuhaifeng (L), caiyun(L), LINDAN (L)(L)(L) and leechongwei.
~~might not be able to stay up to watch! :(((((((( :'(((((~~
YAY! FUHAIFENG AND CAIYUN WON, lcw won, LINDAN WINNING!!! (L)(L)(L)
[/EDIT]

senseless

2009-06-17T23:31:00.002+08:00

badminton was okay, karate was tiring!
good night.

Drown your sorrows in the sea.

2009-06-17T00:16:00.006+08:00

Training will be tougher for this week. Blogging bug has vanished. Might not be updating that frequently? I don't know. Got to train hard. Skipping everyday. Just skipped 400 today for a start. Got to increase daily. Gotta train!!!

Lin Dan/Xie XingFang (L)

Xie XingFang/ Lin Dan (L)(L)

Lee Yong Dae; damn cute.

laughs, wink.

LIN DAN (L)(L) :D

Olympic Gold for Men's Singles. (L)(L)(L)

FU HAI FENG! (:

CAI YUN, FU HAI FENG. Men's doubles, Silver.

BOONSAK PONSANA! (L)(L)

Nicholas told me to blog about him. SO, HEY NIC, I BLOGGED ABOUT YOU!. You're very kind and nice and pro in badminton and taekwondo. HAPPY! I think I must go brainwash myself. Why am I singing your praises -_-

laughs.

Never let your emotions take over the better of you.

2009-06-14T23:31:00.010+08:00

just some pictures.
ShaoZun piggy back-ing Elaf.

BOONSAK vs the korean guy.

overview during semifinals.

XIE XINGFANG!

If she's not tall, what is she?

Super chio poster.

BOONSAK PONSANA!

Maybel, Esther, Xin Yan.

Boonsak (L)

US (:

Zhang Ning, Xie Xing Fang!

Her legs are.. -envy- 1.78m leh! :)

Zhang Ning, Xie XingFang.

Service(:

Peter Gade~~

27 flags(:

Gade's the coach!

Chen Jin(:

End of post.

Uncertainties.

2009-06-14T22:44:00.007+08:00

last day of aviva.. sad. really sad. Can't see those players in action anymore. Esp, xiexingfang and boonsak ponsana ): Xie xingfang lost to zhou mi. Wonder what happened to her in the rubble set. Was really sad. Boonsak lost to Bao ChunLai in the rubble set as well. Didn't watch that match. Expected the results. But I didn't expect Boonsak to be able to win a set. Bao ChunLai is strong. Went to eat with Sheryl, Zhen Hang and Kendrick during Boonsak's match. Gastric :(
-
After that decided not to go skating anymore but in the end, changed decision and went ice-skating with them. Just the 4 of us-- the rest wanted to watch finish the match. When the match ended, they concluded it was too late and didn't join us in the rink. They went to eat before going to the arcade. Skate(d) till 8.40. Went to have a drink before walking to the meeting place to wait for Kendrick's mum to come fetch us. Thanks Kendrick! finally, home and posting.

[picture deleted upon request]

in the rink(: SHERYL;Girlfriend(L)

Kendrick, walking out of the girl's cubicle. Super hilarious. I didn't believe he'd do that. He actually used the girls toilet cause he said that the boys one was too far. I promised him not to post the other one. laughs.

Kendrick, Zhen Hang[Penguin]

Penguin, Sheryl.

ELAF[FU]. laughs. He finally agreed to let me have a picture of him!

Aviva open.

Sometimes, I really don't know how I feel, how to feel and what to feel. Emotions change at an instant. Will this mask wear off just like all the others? Things are just that unpredictable. The future seems so indefinite with all these uncertainties. Is life just that fragile?

Each day's a gift and not a given right

2009-06-14T00:00:00.005+08:00

Quiz by Sheryl Lee Jia Yi, my girlf for tomorrow. tsktsk.

1) Besides lips , where is your favourite spot to get kiss ?
Cheek
2) How do you feel when you woke up this morning ?
Sleepy[as always]
3) Who was the last person you talked with ?
MSN? Jaymaine Lim.
4) Would you consider yourself spoiled ?
Idk.
5) Would you donate blood ?
-faints-
6) Have you ever had a best friend who is opposite sex ?
Yeah.
7)Do you want someone dead ?
Not at the moment.
8) What does the last message says ?
Everybody wearing formal? [Gillian]
9) What are you thinking right now ?
-blank-
10) Do you wish someone with you right now ?
BOONSAK!
11) What time you went to bed last night ?
2.40am
12) Is someone in your mind ?
BOONSAK,XIE XINGFANG! :D
13) Who was the last person you texted ?
Gillian
14) 10 people tagged to do quiz .(in random order)
1. CaiJuan
2. Jayda
3. Ninna
4. Sheryl[already done]
5. Finna
6. Charell
7. Christine
8. Gin Kuan
9. Maybel
10. Jaymaine

15) Who is 2 having relationship with ? (Jayda)
Who do you want, Tom, Dick or Harry? :P
16) Is 3 male or female ? (Ninna)
Female
17) If 7 & 6 get together , would it be a good thing ? (Christine, Charell)
LOL? Impossible.
18) What is 1 study about ? (Caijuan)
KW :P
19) When was the last time you chat with 5 ? (Finna)
8pm+
20) Is 4 single ? (Sheryl)
NAH! Penguin :P
21) Say something about 2 ? (Jayda)
Hongster! laughs.
22) What do you think of 3 & 6 being together ? (Ninna,Charell)
laughs, crazy -_-
23) What do you think if 6 & 7 fight ? (Charell, Christine)
-_- won't one!
24) Do you like 3 ? (Ninna)
laughs, yesyes(:

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Bubbletea
2. Last phone call: Maybel
3. Last text message: Gillian
4. Last song you listened to: Tell Me Why-Taylor Swift
5. Last time you cried: idk..

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: ?
7. Been cheated on: ?
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: ?
9. Lost someone special: yeah..
10. Been depressed: yeah.
11. Been drunk and threw up: nah.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. RED
13. BLACK
14. ORANGE

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Yeah(:
16. Laughed until you cried: Yeah(:
17. Met someone who changed you: idk?
18. Found out who your true friends were: idk..
19. Found out someone was talking about you: ?
20. How many kids do you want to have ? idk.
21. Do you have any pets ? YOU! :P just kidding(:
22. Do you want to change your name ? nah.
23. What did you do for your last birthday ? uh, forgotten.
24. What time did you wake up today ? 12pm to meet the peeps at 12.45 at lakeside-- late of course.
25. What were you doing at midnight last night ? Online.
26. Name something you CANNOT wait for: take a photo with Xie XingFang? LOL
27. Last time you saw your Mother: 10mins ago?
28. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life ? Stop being such a failure --
29. What are you listening to right now ? If Today Was Your Last Day-Nickelback
30. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom ? Nah.
31. What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing?
32. Most visited webpage: Blogger? Facebook?
33. Whats your real name? Teh Kai Ling Elycia.
34. Nicknames: Idrc.
35. Relationship Status: Single.
36. Zodiac sign: Pisces.
37. Male or female ?Female .
38. Elementary ? Jurong
39. Middle School ? FuHua
40.High school/college? idk.
41. Hair colour: Black/Brown?
42. Long or short: idk.
43. What do you like about yourself ? idk.
44. Piercings: 4.
45. Tattoos: None.
46. Righty or lefty: Righty.

FIRSTS :
47. First surgery: None.
48. First piercing: P5/P6
49. First best friend(s): ?
50. First sport you joined: karate(:
51. First vacation: forgotten.
52. First pair of trainers: forgotten.

RIGHT NOW:
53. Eating: Nothing.
54. Drinking: Nothing.
55. I'm about to: finish this quiz! --
56. Listening to: My Life Would Suck Without You-Kelly Clarkson
57. Waiting on: ?

YOUR FUTURE:
58. Want kids ?: probably?
59. Get Married ?: yeah.
60. Career ?: idk
61. Lips or eyes ? Both .
62. Hugs or kisses ? Both .
63. Shorter or taller ? Taller.
64. Older or Younger ? idk
65. Romantic or spontaneous ? idk
66. Nice stomach or nice arms ? Both .
67. Sensitive or loud ? Loud .
68. Hook-up or relationship ? Relationship .
69. Trouble maker or hesitant ? Trouble maker .

HAVE YOU EVER:
70. Kissed a stranger ? nah.
71. Drank hard liquor ? yeah.
72. Lost glasses/contacts ? nah.
73. Sex on first date ? crazy--
74. Broken someone's heart ? idk.
75. Been arrested ? nah, how bout got sent back by police --
76. Turned someone down ? yeah?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
77. Yourself ? Maybe?
78. Miracles ? Perhaps?
79. Love at first sight ? Suppose so.
80. Heaven ? idk.
81. Santa Claus ? If he's nice and sends me a gift for christmas(:
82. Angels ? Suppose so(:

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
83. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time ? Nah.
84. Did you sing today ? nah.
85. Ever cheated on somebody? definition of 'cheated on'?
86. If you could go back in time, how far would you go ? Probably restart my whole life?
87. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be ? idk.
88. Are you afraid of falling in love ? sometimes?
89. Posting this as 90 truths ? idk.
90. Love yourself ? I think so?

Done? --
My eyes are on the verge of going blind.

XIE XINGFANG!!!

2009-06-13T21:26:00.003+08:00

Back from aviva semifinals. It'll be the finals tomorrow!!! -shrieks-
pros is I can get to see Xie XingFang+Boonsak+Bao ChunLai+Xie Zhong Bo+Zhang Yawen in action again! cons is, this is the last day to see them play in aviva 2009! :( :'( :(((((
I'm super sad. Cause I wna take a photo with Xie XingFang!!! :(((((((((((((
end of post.

Senseless.

2009-06-13T02:41:00.003+08:00

very hungry and tired! am going to sleep soon. going aviva tomorrow with the team.
bye.

2009-06-11T23:55:00.004+08:00

DARN
@%$^&!$@%^$^&!#!#@$%! screw this.
Both peter gade and lee chong wei lost! :(
Tomorrow no nice match to see alr! BUT there's still xie xing fang's match! :D and bao chun lai and chen jin and BOONSAK! :D
Boonsak's gonna play with the guy who won peter gade! ZOMG.
Till next time.

I'm sorry

?

2009-06-11T20:15:00.010+08:00

went for aviva tday. missed training -- woke up at 12.35 and still felt tired! thanks charell for waking me up! went for aviva, SUPER FUN. and did I mention that I took a photo with BOONSAK PONSANA yesterday!? :DD -shrieks- and XieXingFang is super chio! I'm going to stay till late to watch Peter Gade's match tomorrow! :D
EDA (L)

Carolyn(after getting smashed by the cake, so sorry!)

Wayne(:

On the cab home(:

Maybel and sheryl. maybel dress till so "gentle" for once. cause got dinner! teehee

The balloony thingo.

PETER GADE! (L)

Poster(:

FuHaiFeng, BaoChunLai,LinDan,XIEXINGFANG and others! :D

BOONSAK PONSANA! :DD

XIEXINGFANG SO HOT!

CaiJuan: hahahah! okay la okay la! AVIVA! (L) XieXingFang so chio! :DD
hahhaa, you la! don't want to relink me! haha. LOVE YOU TOO BUDDAYYE! (L)
JAMIE:) : Okay.
maybel: hahaha, I SUPER PRO ONE OKAY. I succeeded in cheating the sensor!
:D yeah, the proness of elycia teh right!!! :P
rania: hahaha! lol, evil girl! teehee, but its alright. HE DESERVES IT!
:P
EDA: hahaha, really? I got that poster from my teacher last time! hahaha.
TEEHEE!

déjà vu

2009-06-11T02:14:00.003+08:00

So yeah, tuesday was a tiring day, went sentosa, fooled around, celebrated eda's belated 14th(:
all in all, it was fun. update some other time. i'm very tired!

if i said so, would you have replied?

(:

2009-06-09T11:51:00.003+08:00

Going to prepare for sentosa outing w karate peeps later! bye! :D

I need a miracle.

2009-06-08T21:22:00.004+08:00

busy day

had training for 3 hours in the morn, followed by 2hours of bmt at jw sports hall and 20 laps of swimming at arena country club --

W-O-W. I'm totally exhausted, but I'm satisfied! :D

nice workout. should have more days like this(: lose more fats please! :S

training was totally tiring. shall not elaborate further. swimming was (L).

its great to know you have to feel like this.

laughing like a fool just to let everything past.

RANIA: hello! (:yupyup! (L) TSK, you don't have to care about that
'self-claimed-hot' guy! (:
EDA: TSKTSK, okayokay, you're young by nature but you like to act young
too! and your face betrays you! O: its gives away your age! tsk, so you can't
act like some twinky winky kindergarten kids play "whats-that-game-called"
thing! :D Love you too dear (L)

I know I've got issues.

2009-06-07T19:55:00.007+08:00

Karate-Martial Arts Day @Cairnhill today(:

COUSINS :D (L)

Sometimes, things are hard to be put into words. Its just that I've somehow managed to maintain this facade of happiness well enough. Its a new game, a game of masquerade. Where everyone's hiding everything. To be put nicely, its to protect yourself. If not, its just being plain anti. I've got no more strength to compete/argue with anyone. What's done cannot be undone.
-

I'd shoot the sunshine into my veins.

insignificant

~~I'm sorry you know nothing~~

-

2009-06-06T15:33:00.002+08:00

i'm so tired nowww :( going out alr, have to attend wedding dinner later.
till next time.

[EDIT]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDA! :D one year older alr huh, don't try to act young anymore!!! teehee. LOVE YOU BABE! see you soon!!!(:

[/EDIT]

a tinge of fear

2009-06-05T23:35:00.002+08:00

had training, ended early due to the 10th anniversary thing. went to jp with the usual people and sheryl (: super loads of fun! went to buy slippers together, seriously it was damn funny cause actually only maybel wanted to buy then we went into the shop, and everyone bought. hahaha. all red! so hot

that look in your eyes.

2009-06-04T18:50:00.002+08:00

tiring day. went to jw to play bmt w gk and co and as a result missed training cause I went to jw to do my tuition work and play-- rushed back afterwards and in the end, no tuition. darn, had I know this would happen, I'll go for training. :( :(

I don't think I know who you are.

I no longer know how to feel anymore.

Have a smile on your face, even if its plastered on.

Troubles, be gone.

2009-06-03T23:08:00.003+08:00

training was bad. What do you expect with a -4 degrees for the darn spine. It hurts super badly when we were running. so bad that I had to stop at the 3rd round :( and my gastric is killing me. Pon-ed remedials today. idrc. went to the library w shuwuen to do maths, in the end her dad called. so went home, and left for training 30mins later -- met gk and gillian outside sch, went jp to eat, pepper lunch :D shall not elaborate.

I've so much to say that I do not know how to put into words. Its so frustrating.

It hurts to see things this way, what we didn't expected, suddenly fall upon us. It feels so weird, so strange to know that all these might be what you've done. I've made mistakes that I can't erase, everyone does. This isn't good, what does avoiding do to help?

Trying to delay the problem and act as though nothing is the case is not a very smart idea. In the end, the matter just gets worst and everything falls apart. We say things to make ourselves feel better, to make it as though everything's okay, even when its not. Delusions protect us from what's really happening. Life is a series of disappointment whereby pain is inevitable. Evidently, thats true.

Bye

You don't understand, no one does.

2009-06-02T21:12:00.002+08:00

trainings are idk, fun yet tiring. whatever the case, I'm very tired now. and I have nothing left to talk about/nothing else to say.

travelators

Time heals all

2009-05-31T19:19:00.009+08:00

As promised, the photos taken during the science centre trip(:

I swear I laughed my head off at this photo. Tsk, christine. C :D

Muscular huh! LOL

Somehow, her photos are always blur -_-

Teehee.

(L)(L)

hahaha, childish :P

definition of childish bimbo = jayda :D

hahaha, get what I mean by childish!

J and C :D

(L)(L)

EJC (:

thats the thing that we've been in! tsktsk.

hawhaw, jayda claims that christine is stronger than me in this pic! O:

reporters of the day :D

JC :D

camera-girl of the day :P

HARHARHAR!!! if she's not retarded, tell me what she is! O:

C! :D

J! :D

E! :D

J trying to balance on that thing! hahaha, she claims she looks retarded in this! wait, when does she not?! O:

C! O:

J,E :D

Oh yeah, the thing that squashes cans! (:

(L)