so crack a bottle,

let your body waddle.

ELYCIA
Karate♥ Badminton♥
10.03.1994

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Normal day. Going to sembawang for the japan festival tomorrow + to see all those darlings perform and demostrate their katas on stage! (:
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I hate being alone. I hate having no one to talk to and the scary feeling of loneliness. The horrible thoughts that creeps up to you and scare you out of your wits. Those "what ifs" and "if only" coming up in your head, trying to take over and being successful with it most of the times. Those memories that's never gonna come back, crawling into your mind subconsciously and before you know it, you feel the pain of it. Things that you do not want to happen but inevitably, they do. All these things, hurting so badly. I try so hard not to let anything show, only to feel worse afterwards. Trying to deny and delude, failing at all attempts to do so. Thinking so much, but unable to do anything about it. Feeling like the biggest loser, ever.

I can't find serenity in anything I do anymore :(

Labels: karate, sad, thoughts